STORY TIME


ok this is like the only platform where i have space to tell an actual story about myself and i have a lottt to say so here goes:

i’ve been struggling with depression for a really long time but i recently started making happy songs out of those sad feelings and it’s changed my life for the better. i’m turning what could’ve been pity parties into dance parties one song at a time, it’s like the ultimate form of therapy for me. it’s so amazing to see what could’ve been suicide notes get transformed into song lyrics.

all the recent art i’ve made has made me realize all that pain and suffering wasn’t pointless and that there’s beautiful things i can make out of those bad memories. it’s so cliche but what i thought was a curse is actually a gift, maybe even a superpower? recently i’ve also made peace with all my demons, accepted them as part of my life. not sure if they’ll be with me for the rest of my life but they’re here now and i think i should just make the best of it, try to make some art with them.

i’ve always been into making images of myself vs taking images of myself so that’s why i’m using a 3D avatar. just feels like the most natural way to express myself. in a way i feel like the digital me is the realer, truer version of the “real” me. If you met me in person i probably wouldn’t have much to say, i’m super shy. but give me a macbook and a microphone and i’ll show you who i really am. i’ll tell you all about myself: my flaws, insecurities, dreams, fears, everything. i’ll sing about all the things i can’t say in words. no edits. plus i just wanna fly and be a mermaid and i can’t do that in real life.

i also pitch my voice up to sing like a girl because i can’t do that in real life either.

i initially called this project Hablo Picasso because i wanted a rhymey, famous, expensive sounding name. but now i feel like has a deeper meaning. whoever says the name is saying “i speak famous artist/super expensive art” and i love that message. it’s like saying “i’m valuable”, it’s like you’re speaking a higher self-worth into existence.

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